My Life in a Song

what will be left when i've drawn my last breath
besides the folks i've met and the folks who know me
will i discover a soul saving love
or just the dirt above and below me

i'm a doubting thomas
i took a promise
but i don't know what's safe
oh me of little faith

sometimes i pray for a slap in the face
then i beg to be spared 'cause i'm a coward
if there's a master of death i'll bet he's holding his breath
as i show the blind and tell the deaf about his power

i'm a doubting thomas
i can't keep my promises
'cause i don't know what's safe
oh me of little faith

can i be used to help others find truth
when i'm scared i'll find proof that it's a lie
can i be led down a trail dropping bread crumbs
that prove i'm not ready to die

please give me time to decipher the signs
please forgive me for time that i've wasted

i'm a doubting thomas
i'll take your promise
though i know nothing's safe
oh me of little faith

Enraged

You make me sick.
I hate being around you; I hate even looking at you.
You're a liar.
You're a fake.
You are selfish.
You are insensitive.
You constantly degrade people to make yourself feel better.
You push people away.
You've never been there for me.
You bring nothing but negativity into my world.