Try having that conversation with your parents. My mom took it surprisingly well...as though she already had a clue. I guess I've dropped hints over the last couple of years. Why will I probably never get married? Refer to my previous post entitled "Walls" for most of the answers. In short, I'm an extreme control freak and I don't let people get closer than absolutely necessary. Even my closest friends (past and present) have only been able to achieve a certain amount of closeness. Nobody has ever really been
in my world. I've had friends try to explain to me the different level that true intimacy adds to a person's life. Don't get me wrong...I've always had every girl's fantasy of the perfect wedding, strong marriage, and beautiful family. I just don't think I will ever give up enough control to take a relationship to that point. All of my relationships have been short term. I seem to pick people that I can keep at a distance. When they start pushing me to get closer, I cut them loose completely. That is how I function. This is one of the areas of my life that I can't explain. I've been able to trace just about all of my character flaws to specific incidents/causes in my life. This one's still a bit of a mystery. I think I need to go back to therapy. This issue might need a bit of an outside influence to find the answer.
